I’ve often asked things of God with an expectation of receiving, but only because I was going to use what he gave me for a worthy cause. As long as I was benefiting the Kingdom of God with the gifts God gave me, then I was more likely to receive good things. I think this stems from a need to be responsible with my belongings. Being responsible with gifts is a great thing, but they are rarely given, even in the natural, because the giver knows that the gift will be taken care of.
Bill Johnson once said of giving to the homeless that it’s not my responsibility to make sure they use the money for something good; it’s just my responsibility to give. This isn’t a post about giving to the poor, so I won’t go into my thoughts on handouts to corner-standers, but it’s about our heart and our ability to trust God to continue the good works that we began.
I have given thousands of dollars away to people, causes, organizations and the like, but I have never said, “Now, can you show me that my gift is being used wisely?” No, that’s a spirit of control. It puts an expectation of performance on the recipient, which doesn’t make it a gift, rather an investment.
God doesn’t invest in his kids. He gives good gifts. He knows that some kids will use gifts wisely, while others will squander them. Our level of healing helps determine how we deal with gifts, but our relationship with God is what he’s most concerned with.
So when I pray for healing, or I pray for provision, it has occurred to me that there’s nothing tied to a “yes” answer. It’s just free. I’m his kid and he’s a good daddy. Nothing more.